Screeching Halt

As I am sure most of you can tell from my posts, I have been ready for school to start for a while. We had a very busy summer but I didn't feel like we over did it either. I truly enjoyed spending time at the pool with the kids, a few camps and then of course the beach. And now, here we are three days shy of the first day of school. We met Brice's teacher this afternoon and I can tell he is excited and of course a tad nervous. Who isn't when they are starting a new year, not to mention a new school?

And, I'm not gonna lie. It was weird for me. As we were walking into the school, I couldn't deny the lump in my throat and the heartbeat in my ears. I'm just so shocked at how quickly these years have flown by. I felt like I was back at Dolvin Elementary meeting my teachers and finding out where I was going to sit in class. I feel like I want one more year with Brice even though he is more than ready. I was standing in the bus line to get the information, looking around at all the kids, and wanted to point a remote at my head and rewind it full of memories of Brice. I just know all too well how this works. He will start kindergarten on Monday and then by Friday he will be walking across the stage with a diploma in his hand. I wish I had some brakes sometimes because I would put a screeching halt on all this growing up so fast.

I didn't think I was going to be emotional about this but now I am finding that I am. I don't want to be, I just am. It's not the fact that he's going to school or riding the bus, it's just that it goes so fast and I don't want to want anything back. I want to do it right the first (and only) time but sometimes life seems to just goes too fast for me to even stop and evaluate if I'm doing a good job or not. I know Brice is going to do a good job, no question. I just hope that he and Anna have no question about whether or not I'm doing a good job.

I guess we'll find out next Friday, right? You know...when he graduates!!