Bubble Wrap

As if I needed any reason to love this little guy any more, any fiercer...

he took over my emotions 1000x yesterday when I let him fall down the stairs.  Obviously, not on purpose.  But, he rolled, all the way down a flight of stairs, 16 steps to be exact.  13 carpeted, 3 hardwood.  It was horrific and terrible and I realize how lucky we are that he is right now asleep in his crib, drooling on his whale sheet while sucking on the middle finger.  I was folding clothes, he was in the laundry room, he crawled out of the laundry room as I was standing up with my hands full to take his laundry to his room.  I thought he would follow me, not head for the stairs.  I was talking to Anna and as soon as I thought to turn and check on him, it was too late.  He was at the top of the stairs, reaching for the first step down and I threw the blankets and burp cloths to the floor to grab him but the weight of him took him.  He log-rolled down the stairs the whole way, looking like a lifeless rag doll.  I can't get the image out of my head.  Justin immediately picked him up, I called the doctor and we took him in.  The only "damage" being a small amount of blood that came out of his nose. 

My heart just aches thinking about it.  It needs some Bubble Wrap, along with Kyle.  Come to think of it, I could use some for all the kids.  I wanted some for Anna after she was sick.  And, Brice, well he's just too perfect to let anything happen to.  But there I admitted it.  I had to get it out.  At least it didn't happen on Mother's Day, right?  My Mother's Day was wonderful, complete with sleeping in, a clean kitchen, Starbucks, a new book, cards from the kids, and dinner made for me.  It was awesome.  Thank you Justin for treating me so wonderfully!

Kyle, I love you.  I will try not to stare at the video monitor tonight, like I did last night.  I will carry you around so that you may never walk on your own.  Football?  Forget it, kid.  You may play...nothing.  You have to stay inside always and Daddy and I will cover the house in rubber foam.  I will make it my life to protect you from harm as much as possible without hindering your spirit, IF, in 40 years when I fall, you take me to the doctor.  And, you may then wrap my body in bubble wrap.